I'm scared to say it out loud for fear of jinxing things, but it seems that things may be getting better. Cate is sleeping more (although we can't go longer than 5 hours between feeds once in the night, and every other feed a max of 4 hours), smiling more, she's happier... Today I feel like I got some sleep (~6 hours) and I am actually crossing things off my to do list (blogging), besides feeding, burping, and pumping. I know I may be tired tomorrow and not get anything crossed off my to do list tomorrow, but I'll be thankful for today. Oh, and I counted how many "appointments"we had in February and March--16 each month. This month it looks like we will only have 9, unless something comes up. I wonder how I would manage working 40 hours right now and doing all this. I am in awe of the parents that can make it work. I was reading back to the beginning of this blog the other night. I was in such a fog then. Although I cried everyday, I don't think I always grasped the severity of things, or how things could've gone differently. I can't believe how far Cate has come. I am SO proud of her. She's the strong one. Gotta run. Time to feed my girl.